Lord. I should have listened. Can this go beyond the aspect of sensibility. I don't know why these resources are hoarded for the sake. When I have mine, I see the patio and the light sunny day, I saw blue and brown, I saw that the roaches were like a in pouring swirl, almost artistic in the filth which put them there. It is as if the roaches are covering up a certain thing, and this thing is consuming the roaches area. The floor was wooden. I wore my sperry leather shoes with the blue. Perhaps this was the blue which was spoken of? I bought those shoes. I am sorry to have waited until she died to help out or to love her. What is the matter with me? The family seemed to compete with me for something, or somehow. I didn't want to be known without the quiet mention of <a href="Command post.html">Lord</a> Jesus Christ.